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Fucking hungry.
I am going to sound like a fucking syco but I don’t want to lose that one pound. I am better then that! I will try to eat tomorrow but I will probably end up tearing up my food and make it look like I ate something. Yay. I just have to take it one step at a time. PB&J that is it.
Sick todayy! Didn’t fuckingg eat yayayayay! Anyways hoping to lose a pound by Thurs
Rant.
I can only relate to like 2 of my friends with me eating problems and cutting. And the funny thing is they think I am better. I purge now and I barley eat anything… I am absolutely disgusted. I hate the way I look. I am so short and fat. I look like a blob. I wish I could get help but my mom thinks girls who out themselves through that are attention seekers and are selfish. Which I am. My sister purges and my mom is so mean to her and I feel so bad. I tell my mom it is mean and she just says I am a bitch. Whatever. I am also too fat for a belly button ring… which I am. My fucking stomach is huge! But I lost 10 lbs in a month. Which I am so proud of! Plus I have not swam in forever! Well a week. But I have been running and exercising a lot! But I gained a pound. I am such a random person. Ok, so I am going to the doctors soon and I don’t want them to weigh me! (I have to go because my adhd) I am scared because I don’t want them to figure anything out! I will seriously die if they do! I am so embarrassed! But anyways, I should be going to bed…
